After years, today I picked up a pen and pulled a notebook from my shelf to write about what's been in my mind from ETERNITY now. It drives me crazy that I don't have any special talent WHATSOEVER! So here I am totally ready to pour myself out..
Back in 8th Standard, my mother sent me to classical dance classes, the dance form was Katthak and my dance movements were absolutely horrible. Nonetheless, I still continued my practice until I gave a couple of annual dance exams and then finally called it quits to do something that wouldn't involve body movements, I chose GUITAR!
I joined this guitar class that was around 3 kilometers from my house and started my learning. I picked up slowly and in some time I learnt the chords of THE MOST easiest Bollywood song to play in guitar. Now, I was finally good at something- I knew a song that I could play in guitar.. Wohoo! Regardless, my heart shattered that very day when my tutor asked me to play the song and SING along-side. I lost all the confidence in a jiffy but still played the chords while two of my mates sang the lyrics along with me. This day was over but I had nightmares of singing a song while playing guitar in the next class and therefore, very conveniently, I decided to skip it instead and have fun with my friends. I did this twice and thrice because my 15 years old self had thoroughly convinced me that I shouldn't play guitar when I can't sing. By this time, my mother had also found out that I have been bunking and chilling with my babes. What followed next is a very popular trend among teenagers and their parents- HOUSE ARREST!
A few months passed and I approached my parents to apprise them of my willingness to join swimming classes but by this time my family had lost all hopes of my consistency with doing something and wanted me to study, JUST STUDY! However, they did not forbid me from going to the school court in the evenings to play basketball; but it was too soon that I realized that it was too late for me to draw level with the others in the game and this led to another infamous quit.
The clock ticked by and in no time I was in Law School in an entirely new city alone. I spent first few months finding friends I would spend the next 5 years with. No, actually I DIDN'T do that. Good friends just happened on their own then and they're all still by my side.
On a side note to self: Why doesn't a talent find it's way to me the way my friends did?
Okay, so college had full fledged-ly begun and so had my arduous search for my talent (once again).
One day, I was sitting in my hostel's common room when a friend invited me to play basketball with them, I went ahead that evening to play with them. But here, if you were hoping to hear that MYSELF and BASKETBALL clicked this time, then I'm sorry! Infact, it was in the very few initial minutes of the 50 minutes game itself that I realized what a brilliant decision I had taken in Higher Secondary School about not going ahead with basketball.
A semester passed by in college, our results were out and my grades were good. The next day, one of my college mates told me or rather exclaimed that she loved my sense of fashion and my free spirit that traveled to so many neighboring cities. She told me I was doing wonderful at the animal care center that she had heard about and despite all of this, I had managed to get better marks than the most. Oh, what an irony! My college mate saw so much in me while I was still struggling to find that ONE special talent! Her words, however, about me having a good sense of fashion made me want to start a full fledged fashion blog. But with time, I had exhausted myself to law school studies, the stress of internships and the employability anxiety.
After almost six years from then, here I am working in an MNC. I have been absolutely loving this job and the people around me from the last two years and am still trying to uncover that one special talent from amongst the ones I have already had my hands-on and also the new ones. In this exploration journey of finding that talent, I have learnt a lot of small things and have also realized that I do not need to excel in all or any of them! As of today, I can swim to save my (or other's) life, I have learnt a crazy lot about animal petting, I have learn't to eat with chopsticks, I can practice Yoga, can meditate and I even run Marathons.
While I wrote this up, I also figured I am just PASSIONATELY CURIOUS and can never stop exploring new horizons EVEN IF I have found that one special talent.
Before, I sign off, let me tell you- starting tomorrow I plan to learn basic car mechanics.
Kriti..
Here are some of the pictures from the school days that this write-up was mostly about.
This was when we played The Waving Flag and Rubaroo in the Annual House Function. Astoundingly, I enjoyed singing out loud with the group or may be that was because I knew I was nowhere close to the mic.
Had performed Lavani dance in one of the similar annual functions too. I have beautiful memories of staying back after school for the practices.
Also, I used to be the House Prefect for Chenab House at that point in time and so I had other added responsibilities too.
Take me back to those days.
